Maybe I'm wrong
I don't think I'll hear from her again.
The first date was perfect.
We laughed, we got close, we kissed when I dropped her home.
Then we didn’t talk for three days straight.
Maybe the fact that I want love and I want to give is what comes off as unattractive. Showing that you care is like a precious black pearl that nobody wants to hold anymore.
Maybe I should toss it all under the mattress and be like any other guy out there, cold, mysterious, silent, so the other person can picture me as someone they’d rather want me to be, not who I actually am. Talk about my life as if it’s something it’s not. Give them small crumbs here and there, but not enough for them to form an opinion — not a clear one at least.
“Give them mixed feelings.
Make their heart race.
Keep. them. guessing.”
Really? I’m sick and tired of the games, of the cat and mouse, of which one plays harder to get. I’m not gonna pretend to be a brick wall, I don’t wanna act like one.
“Many people complain about not finding a significant other, yet they don’t even try to get to know somebody.”
At the end of the day, I think it boils down to one simple question: What do you want out of this?
Because I’m looking for commitment — obviously not from the first date, I’m not crazy. But I need something steady and sincere, not disorientation and chaos. Yes, I’m still young; that doesn’t mean I’m willing to waste my time hanging out with a new girl every other week. Men have told me that straight to my face, their most valuable piece of advice, countless times, for it’s how my twenties should be lived. It’s today’s masculine standard, I suppose.
Does it make me boring that I’m not the same? Does that mean, in any way, shape or form, that I’m not living my life the way that I should?
Not even close.
I know I can have the time of my life with one single woman, while others can keep shuffling theirs. I’m not into chasing imaginary butterflies.
But hey, you do you.
I’m gonna keep doing me. Hell, I never mind.
And I said, kiss your baby goodbye
Come on love, it's alright
Heaven knows they wanna break you apart
Kiss your baby goodbye
Come on love, it's alright
You never know unless you give it a try.
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